maanantai 26. tammikuuta 2015

Love in this selfish world of ours.


Look at this video. Did it make you cry? It made me sob. Did it make you think? It sure made me do exactly that. If it didn't even make you think, then there is definitely something wrong because this is amazing and it should make everyone think.

Love is a very powerful thing in this world of ours. Without God there would be no love. But because of Satan and the fall of man, there is sin. There is hate. There is selfishness. There is arrogance. There are so many bad things. Yet still we have a weapon against all of that. And that is the love we've received from our Father. The love God uses us to touch people with. The love we spread around. The love with no expectations. This kind of love:

13 If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,but do not have love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror;then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
(1 Corinthians 13)

So what is it you did today to show someone you cared? Did you show someone what love is? The right kind of love?. Did you do something Jesus would do? Were you in a situation in which you could just show you've got God's love inside of you? 
Did you try to hide the love from the people around you? Did you try to ignore situations in which an act of love could have been needed? Did you focus on yourself more than on others? Did you think of only your problems and not care what the people around you were going through? Did you feel good about yourself when you saw someone who wasn't doing so good?
If you're struggling with love, or you don't know how to use it. (It is possible not to know how to use love.) Or you've been able to love, but have felt like you didn't gain anything from it. Or you don't feel like you have enough love to give. That's perfectly okay. Because God is love. And with God we can love. 

Love small, love medium, love big. But still, love. 
You don't need to go give compliments to strangers if you don't feel comfortable with that. You don't have to force yourself to do anything. You can start with the smallest of things. Well, the things that might feel really small, but actually have great power in this world of ours. A smile could brighten up someone's day. A good conversation with someone could stick in their mind for a week. Helping someone with something, trying not to be selfish, thinking positive, looking around you with eyes like many things. By reading the Bible, the word of God. You learn more about love and how to love. When the word of God sinks into your heart, into who you are, you are filled with the words of love. Because God is love and the Bible is His word and so the Bible was also written by Love Himself. So the more you learn about God, the more you learn about love. 

Oh, and EVERYONE can love. The poorest person, but also the richest person. We're actually all rich with love. And I'd prefer love over money any day. 

Today as I was walking to school after hanging out and having pizza with Leo during my free period, I saw this situation. A street full of teenagers and an old woman. This old woman was blind and she had accidentally ended up on the street instead of the sidewalk. She was walking towards a parked car and couldn't see or feel anything because the amount of snow there distracted her from feeling around with the cane she had in her hand. So in a minute or so she would've bumped into that car and most likely fallen down, because she didn't seem to have the best balance in the world. I was so surprised no one paid any attention to her. She was talking to herself and wondering where she was exactly. And so I rushed up to her and told her she wasn't on the sidewalk and she was so surprised and I asked if I could help her get to where she was heading and she thanked me and I helped her over the curb, through a bank of snow and walked with her for a moment on that street and she was very happy I had come just in time to help her. I know for sure God brought me there just in time, because the other people didn't see this coming. Which worries me. But I'm glad I was able to help. And I do truly love old people, so it was a golden moment in my day as well<3 heheh. But people, keep your eyes open and look out for the people around you, because this world needs each and every one of us. This world need way more love. Way more actions. For actions speak louder than words.
I'm starting to lose my point, so one word: LOVE.

-Kata <3

sunnuntai 11. tammikuuta 2015

This should be for all of you.


So it's Sunday. I slept so well last night and I woke up with enough energy to last a lifetime. (I don't feel it anymore though...) Anyway I had yogurt, oatmeal and strawberry sauce for breakfast, watched a few episodes of The Voice (USA), dreamed of being a singer and performer. Stopped dreaming. Lagged. After lagging I had dinner with my family and my sister's friend and it was great, because we had lasagna. And my mom makes the best lasagna on earth. After my stomach was perfectly full I started studying. I read for my theory test and studied for some more. Had a break to read Brian Houston's book, "For This I Was Born". (Love it by the way!) And studied again. Then I talked on the phone with my friend Leo and it gave me a good boost for the starting week. I feel quite determined now and I hope it lasts long.

I've never been the best at school, never brought the best grades home. Always compared myself to my two sisters that always seemed to be succeeding at basically everything I was not. I struggled in Elementary school because of language issues, which led to struggling in Middle school as well. Math, Physics, Chemistry, Biology, Geography..etc. have never been easy for me. English, religion, P.E, art, health..etc. have always been good to me. They still keep me thinking I'm not the dumbest person on earth and I don't have to be the best at everything. But when you grow up with people succeeding around you in the subjects you don't and do succeed in, you start thinking there's something wrong with you. You study so much it isn't good for you anymore and you still get just o.k grades..and sometimes even less than that. You start stressing even more when you realize you'll struggle trying to keep up with the people around you. You don't want to be the only dumb person in your circle of people. You don't want to be judged by the grades you get, because you do truly study the best way you can.
Anyway I have a lot of experience with feeling dumb and unsuccessful and stressed. I have too much experience of feeling disappointed with myself and my life. I've hated myself, I've cried myself to sleep over it. I've tried to prove myself to others in different ways. I've hidden my anxiety and stress from my friends and tried to be cool, just like them. I've been at a point where I haven't even wanted to study and I've failed and had to re-take exams and doubled the amount of stress I've had. I've been at the rock bottom when it comes to school and the pressure it provides. I've had many conversations with my parents about me, my education and God's plan for me. My dad said very wisely that God might take away more from something (in this case, school.) and give more in another thing (social talents, faith.) And even after all of that I've still wanted to prove myself to my parents. And the people around me. I want to bring the best grades home, just like my sisters. I want to feel like my studying paid off. I want to bring home a gold medal. (My sisters brought home gold and silver medals from the Elementary school Olympics every year. And my parents would ask me if I got something and I'd always smile and say no, not this time. And then run into my room and cry. At school when I saw my two sisters going up in front of everybody to receive their medals, I clapped with everyone else and smiled and felt truly happy for them and then went to cry in the bathroom.) I know I sound really sad now and you might feel really depressed while reading this, but I'm getting to my point in a few minutes.
So as you can see I'm not perfect. I'm not like my sisters, or like anyone else around me. I'm different. So what! I think we're all different, even though sometimes it might seem like everyone else around you is alike and they're super cool like that. But I think some people (like me) are really good at hiding their differences. We shouldn't, but we still do.
These past few years I've been going through a big transformation in myself and in the way I think. The way I think about myself and the way I think about others. I don't cry myself to sleep every night and I don't cry every time I get a bad grade. I've pursued a stronger relationship with God, which has made me a stronger person, especially in my faith. Yes, I still experience a lot of disappointment when it comes to school, but I've gotten this far. Even though it's a big struggle at times. I have my final exams coming up in March and I am so determined to get through that final straw. And when I do, I will be one of the happiest people on earth. I will feel the largest amount of relief there is on this planet and I will dance with joy. I know for sure that the struggle I've been going through for years will pay off. In a way it kind of already has. I am way more confident and stronger. I take failures and disappointment in a much lighter way then I used to, which is a big positive plus for my social "talent"/behavior/..whatever you want to call it. Because I'm able to help others when they go through hard struggles like this. Or worse. I know God is preparing me for something bigger than myself. I know He has a plan for my life. Just like he has a plan for you as well. I'm only 18. Twenty years from now I'll just smile at the time I was in school. I'll see all the great things that came out of all of it and I'll be forever thankful for God letting me go through with all of it. Fifty years from now I've most likely experienced amazing things on this life- long adventure with God. I already have, so I can't wait to go through more amazing things. God is making me very curious. He has definitely carried me when I haven't been able to carry myself. And now He's walking with me. He's holding my hand. I fall, He lifts me up again. I trip, He catches me, I make the wrong decision, He guides me back to where I'm supposed to be. I'm so not alone. And neither are you. Isn't that just awesome!? It makes me feel so comfortable and so loved and so blessed and so cared for and so accepted and so so SO everything!!<3 hahaa, I can't stop smiling.
When you feel lost, disappointed, stupid, dumb, alone, masked, ugly, angry, terrified, anxious...and whatever- Come to God. "Come to me my children," -He would most definitely say. "I love you", "I made you.", "I have a plan for you", "I have a surprise for you", "I died for you." It's been made very clear in the word of God what our Heavenly father thinks about us. Very clear. And the biggest proof of His love for us is Him sending down His son, Jesus to live on this earth with all of His creation. To love them and show them His kingdom, to make friends, to hang out with sinners, to teach, to guide, to give examples...Jesus did so many things. Anyway God sent down his one and ONLY son to suffer and die on the cross to tell you He was passionate about YOU. To show how much He loves each and every one of us. He loves you. And that is clear. Nothing else should come in the way of you being a part of this love. Of you accepting this love in to your life. Not school, not your hobby, not your phone, not your car, not your money...nothing should come in the way of this love. I was at a point where all of my issues with school came between me and God. I was miserable. I was broken. I felt alone. But as I mentioned earlier, these past few years I've made the best decisions of my life, choosing God, living for Him, thanking Him and worshiping Him, going through different struggles WITH Him and being comforted by Him through disappointments. I just try my best to have Him with me in every part of my life. I want to be an example to others out there who are struggling with different kind of things and with being different/ feeling different. It's perfectly okay to be different. 
I think I'm getting a little overwhelmed with all of this. When I get excited I get lost and lose the point for all of this. But I think there are a lot of good points and good encouragements in this for all of you. I'm sorry if I seem unclear about some things, but I hope this post will give you determination to do things with God. To search for a time in each day to spend time with Him. I'm going to start off every day with God. Because I feel, when I start off each day with Him, nothing is impossible. Like the famous worship song says; "Through You I can do anything, I can do all things, 'cause it's You who gives me strength, nothing is impossible!". I'm very bad at closing my texts with a quote or a deep sentence that will stick to your mind for the rest of your days...So I really wish each and every one of you an amazing week, an unforgettable spring and a life changing year! God bless you! Good luck with your studies and everything you do! 

p.s. I'm better in school now. Math is a struggle, but everything else...oh yes<3 I've conquered a lot of struggles. Oh aaaand I didn't even struggle with math during my last lecture, so I see good signs. But I'd appreciate it if you'd keep me in your prayers. 

After my final exams I'll be going to the Netherlands again and after that to Riga with my dad, so I'd say that's surely a prize to wait for and it will push me to study even harder. It took me so long to write this and I already second guessed myself like four times because I was unsure about sharing all of this with you. but I do believe God still uses my blog to reach out to people. He's done it before and He can do it again!

Good night! Sleep tight! x

- Kat

A Shadow of A Doubt

Watch this and let it sink in! 

sunnuntai 4. tammikuuta 2015

Netherlands' invasion

(I wrote this on Thursday, but it took a while for the pictures to upload.)

Netherlands' Invasion

I'm sitting on my bed listening to Casting Crown's The Acoustic Sessions- album and feeling quite sad. Today we had to say goodbye to Bob and Rob. They came last Saturday and left today, so we've been able to have quality time with these two for the past 6 days. Milla just sent me a text saying how their house feels so empty without me and the boys there and I feel quite empty myself. I mean 6 days goes pretty fast when you're enjoying yourselves. I had an amazing time and the connection we have with these people is so special. Precious people.

I cried so much at TeenStreet this summer when we had to say goodbye to each other, but this time I didn't cry at the airport when we hugged our dutchies goodbye. I cried at home and a bit in the car as well when I realized they were actually gone. We won't be seeing them until most likely next April. Okay that's 4 months away and I think we can make it, but still. I'd rather see these people every day. On the other hand I'd rather not...because every time we see each other and get to spend time together it feels even more special because we don't see each other daily. But yes, it would be cool to live in the same country. You never know, maybe that will happen some day. I mean we love each other's countries. Hehe, at least I do.

Anyway Bob and Rob, we miss you guys already! It was awesome to have you here and we hope to see you on the surface of our country again some day. Skype and Whatsapp will keep us connected, so we won't die. But of course, I'd rather talk with you face to face. Thankyou for coming and God bless you <3

We did a lot of fun things these past days and you'll find out exactly what those things were by checking out the following pictures:

I feel so blessed. Hope you enjoy the pictures.

(I'll post some more pictures later)